The Day Finally Came...

When God Told Me It Was Time To Focus 

Exclusively On My Body.

Somewhat recently in my Facebook group, Twin Flames Universe: Open Forum, I came across a discussion about how members were doing the Mirror Exercise and spiritual work my Twin Flame Jeff and I teach in our book and spiritual school, and how they were losing weight successfully.  I paused wanting to write how the complete opposite has been my situation, but I stopped myself because I believed members, especially newer members, might think my spiritual work and process is either not real, and/or they will gain weight from healing Twin Flame separation and therefore perhaps might not attract their Twin Flame.

Luckily, the truth is you do not attract your Twin Flame through your body because Union is a Divine Love, and so you attract your Harmonious Union by unconditional love and acceptance of self and your beloved.

I have talked about my weight briefly in a few of my Twin Flame Ascension School classes over the past year because it's something I've been working on healing my entire life, and because it's obvious that I gained significant weight since physically meeting Jeff back in June of 2014, but it's been a highly sensitive issue for me to publicly talk about until now.

I have gained 75 pounds in the last four years and I can tell you why this was in my best and highest interest to do so and why it was bound to happen.

Let me just start off by saying that in the last four years my physical activity declined and the amount and quality of food I began to have access to increased.  As Jeff and I went from Union to Harmonious Union we embraced our natural design of "hermits" and the majority of our time and lifestyle has been one of constant spiritual work, meditation, UPHEAVAL, work on our Twin Flame business, running basic errands, and resting.  I'm not kidding when I say that has been our lifestyle 24 hours a day for the last four years.

We are *extremely* focused on our path and goals, and this devout concentration is now paying off.  We do minimal exercise, especially because we do have a dog, but to focus more on fitness would be taking from ourselves and create imbalance with where we're actually at.  You have to have a proper foundation to truly devote yourself to perfecting your body.  So guess what?  Jeff and I finally have the correct foundation to divert our inner and outer resources to perfecting our bodies.

We were never the type of people to bargain having one thing over the other.  Our spiritual life and what it requires is first and foremost.  God has been perfectly guiding us along at every juncture.

The other reason why I gained significant weight has to do with my childhood upbringing.  I was born into a poor family where neither parents had a college education or a well-paying job, and I had a mother who was obese and was raising me to be fat and hide my beauty.  My mother rarely cooked, and if she did it tasted awful.  The lack of love that consciously went into my food is spiritual, emotional, psychological, and even physical abuse as far as I'm concerned.

I have severe food and exercise trauma that I've been healing.  Exercise trauma in that I was forced to work at the young age of nine doing a paper route an hour+ over the next six years of my childhood.  Walking when I was tired and exhausted from school and walking in harsh northern Canadian weather, and walking with little to no food in my belly that was low in nutritional content and love; everyday for six years that was my life.  As an aside, I've been working every year of my life since I was nine, so, that's 23 years of my life I've been working and I'm just now transitioning to a more relaxed and passive income lifestyle.  Well deserved I believe!

I was in the low-income bracket all throughout my twenties as I attended college/university for 6 years and then traveling around like a gypsy working minimum wage jobs the last 4 years trying to figure myself out and what I had unique to offer the world.

So when Jeff and I finally met I was smaller, weighing 125 pounds, but my body was also really out of alignment with my Divine Body despite being significantly thinner.  You could clearly see I had a blueprint for obesity when you look at my body.  I was so starved of rich and nutritionally-dense food I had been basically denied of my entire life.  So as Jeff and I began to experience more abundance I was divinely guided to "catch up," and for the first time in my physical incarnation I actually get to BE well-fed.  I would cry at times healing this pain and trauma surrounding food, exercise, and beauty because my parents and guardians had denied it, my limited resources denied it, but now I was healing it and beginning to go to those places where I was never loved, and love myself there.

Another issue I had was how much I had been controlling gaining significant weight like my mother.  But I learned from God that I had to dive deep into my programming given to me by my family and environment in order to heal it rather than avoid it.

Fast-forward today and I begin to recognize a change in my body.  My wedding ring is beginning to be uncomfortably tight and it's already sized up from my original wedding ring size.  Over the last six months I had been consistently tuning into God and asking Him if I'm "well-fed enough" and the immediate response in my heart is a gentle and loving "not yet but soon."  I knew this was the Truth.

It's been a month since I asked God this question but with the onset of my uncomfortable wedding ring, tighter clothes, and a dream-warning from God to Jeff and I,  I noticed that I am indeed officially re-balanced from a lifetime of being underfed and undernourished (physically, emotionally, and spiritually).

The dream Jeff had was God simply speaking to him saying that if I continue going down the path of eating whatever I want whenever I want, I will manifest diabetes.  There was nothing wrong with how I had been eating prior because I was re-balancing and I was always keenly checking in with God to see if I was in Divine Order with my meals, and I always was.  But since I am now well-fed and re-balanced, it would be very unhealthy for me to continue going down this path.  No one is going to love me for me, I must do this for myself and because I deeply love, value, respect, and cherish the life I have co-created with my Twin Flame and with God.

I sat down in Jeff's office and told him that at some point I know I would have to draw the line and that line is now.  He agreed and said that he wouldn't allow my ring to be sized up because he would be consenting to me being out of order with my Divine Body.  He supported me gaining weight because it was healing and in Divine Order, but the day has finally come where I have the foundation, healing, support, and resources to manifest my Divine Body, and because God says it's time to focus on coming into Union with Him there.

This indescribable joy flooded my consciousness and body as I aligned with my new choice.  I finally get to be and have my Divine Goddess Image manifested on Earth for myself, and for all to see and be healed and inspired by.

Jeff and I with God designed a home gym that day for our basement.  We ordered a bow flex and some accessories to go with it, and we also ordered a nice treadmill.  We're moving our old TV in the basement so I can walk/run to Netflix, Pandora, or YouTube, which is nice.  This home gym is going to be like a play room for us.  We also have a smaller room in the basement with a bathroom attached to it and that's going to be our yoga room now.  I bought an Ashtanga Yoga posture poster as well as prayer flags and chakra pictures for the yoga room, and I got some yoga accessories.

As for the change in my diet I am still in the process of clarity.  I plan on sitting with God shortly and asking Him some questions about it.  I was guided to get an app to count calories and monitor my meals and health.  The app is called Lose It! and it's really amazing.  Jeff and I desire to be in shape in 12 months time, so basically I have to lose 2 pounds a week in order to achieve that and I think I can since I made a new choice to and this app tracks my progress.

I also ordered multi-vitamins for women that is subscription based and they have incredible reviews.  It's called Ritual and you can find out more about them here.  I might look into the Keto diet as I have lots of excess fat to burn, or eating for my blood type, but once again I'm still going to tune in with God shortly on that.  I do not feel I will be called to vegetarianism even though I was a strict vegetarian for ten years, but I suppose I won't know until it's revealed.

All I know is that my way may not be your way because we have different bodies and a different healing journey, although you may feel called to do as I have or something similar.

It's about trusting God and completely trusting your healing process, even if it means you gain weight, or don't gain (or lose) weight.  I can tell you one thing, surrender your health, healing, and beauty to God and you will be happy and joyful you did as successful inner and outer results appear in your reality.  I know I already am, even after a day of God revealing to me that it's time for me to lose my weight and get fit.  Whatever the journey, it's always about love and coming into Union with God.



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In Divine Love & Joy Always,
~Shaleia~
xoxo